Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Burning with anticipation, Drenched in ice

Needless to say, I was counting the days towards the completion of the renovation date. I awaited in ardent anticipation. The contractor promised me that it’d be ready within 3 weeks time. By the end of the third week, I was harassing the contractor on the phone every single day, asking her, “Is it ready yet? Can I move in yet? Can you do the renovation works, while I’m staying in?”

Yet, the contractor always lifted up my hopes and crushed it with a big, heavy hammer. “Yup! It’s done! You can move in by the end of this week.”

Yet, when I was just about to move in, there were always something still not done - the lights, the plumbing works, the windows, the furniture arrangements.

I was devastated. “You said it would take only three weeks!” I moaned and sulked and mumbled to myself, after each conversation. Okay. So, I was a spoilt brat, expecting everything in life to go as planned and scheduled.

But hey, all of us need to wake up to reality sometime, Jean. You just can’t control everything right at your finger tips, neither can you have everything you want at the snap of your fingers. Life is all about learning how to handle disappointments, resolving issues professionally and protecting relationships you hold most dear. Being emotionally alert, aware and attached, to your dearest ones. Easier said than done.

Grumbling, of course, never helped. So once again, I drowned myself in my work and started working late in the night. Consoled and contented, I finally relented, caved in to the fact that I should just allow the river to run its course. Not steering it towards the destination I intended.

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